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I Chose to Ignore It

8:53 PM • • 1 comments

February is not the best month is it? I find that nearly all Februaries I have been in are not the "happiest" month. Maybe this is due to nearly everyday I go outside being cloudy and moist. Maybe it is due to the prolonged winter, or snow. It just is not the happiest month for many reasons. However, Spring break is only 5 weeks away, and this is good. This might seem like a long time, but it is very fast for me, considering four weeks have already gone by. I am just trying to make it through the week so I can get to the weekend. This weekend is going down to Laguna + Monday I have off. That is the rarest of rare. I plane on doing another photoshoot with three people. I get to use the museum room, which is VERY white, and I am very excited for that. I usually DIY the backdrop and place it takes place. I know what I am going for, but I have an extremely hard time describing what I intend to do. I have three VERY attractive people, and I intend to show this off. I GOT A GUY THIS TIME!

Here at the school, this month is called the "worst month" because everyone goes insane. People just leave because they need a break and have cracked. I can certainly see why. I am dying to just drive somewhere and let loose and go crazy. I yearn for this. Maybe this is just the rules talking, or maybe the work. It would be lovely to have this option however. I am extremely stressed. Not finals stress, or school stress, but just stressed. My grandmother is not doing very well and is very old and I hate that I cannot visit her in the hospital among other things. I hope it goes well. I am also stressed about college. I talked to Anna Li about graduating early, I need to take one course over the summer. I am just pondering how this will look on applications to colleges. Will it look impressive to be graduating early, or the lack of "extra" classes not look so great. Time will tell, for I have to graduate. I am just ready to, in general.

That is my life for now. It is snowing. This is nice.

Caeser - I Blame CoCo

Art Friday

12:50 AM • • 0 comments

This is mainly a art update, with just general things.

1. Do NOT watch scrubs before going to bed, you will have messed up pregnant males in your dreams.

2. The time spent on something DOES show.

3. Chocolate cherries are better than Natalie Portmans head in V for Vendetta

Just really, rules to live by. Here are some photos I did of my last photoshoot. I am preparing a new one, with a crow mask. I found one which looks legit but it is nearly 50 dollars, which is a LOT, although creepily enough I would not mind just owning one to wear whenever I felt like it, maybe I would be like The Knife! Anyway, if anyone can find a site with a crow mask such as this, I would highly appreciate it, further blogging tomorrow or Sunday






Lo-Fi-Fnk - Marchin' In

Hollywood

10:16 PM • • 2 comments

I travelled to Los Angeles yesterday, and what a fun day it was. I will attempt to finish this with some detail, due to the fact I am getting more and more sick as the day passes, I will try my hardest. The drive to and from is around 2.5 hours, and goes from 6000 ft. up from my school in the snow, across the ghetto desert land, past orchards, and onto more and more vegetated cities. I could tell when we got there by how the smog slowly collected, onto more and more of the land. Once we arrived, it was nice and warm, and on we went into MOCA. It was a truly amazing muesum, with a great collection of up and coming artists as well as older artists. Mixes of Andy Warhol blended in with sexual images of Nan Goldin. Once we had discovered all that was, a few friends and I went out and walked along the streets, got coffee and explored. A few hours later, we went to Little Tokyo, where we got good Asian food, went to American Apparal, and sat in chairs and just discussed things. It was a nice trip. I cannot see myself living in Los Angeles, but I do enjoy visiting.






Hollywood - Marina and the Diamonds

Intergalactic Spell

2:58 AM • • 1 comments

This weekend a lovely "lazy" day. I woke up at Ten am, and slowly got out of my bed. I got clothes on, grabbed a vanilla latte from the bookstore and headed down to Native Arts, the art building I work at. It is a lovely space, all wood with concrete floors, and very cozy yet spacious. I brought my drawing I had been working on, still am, about 18 hours worked on it thus far. I invited my friend Delaney over to join me, she had a screen printing project she needed to work on as well. I invited her to have a Skins watching party, I had just recommended the show to her last night and she is addicted. She got there, we set the computer up and started watching and working. Around One, we went to get a large pizza, and watched the season finale. Soon after we started to watch The Breakfast Club while she tought me how to screenprint. Then today I made a t-shirt, went to Aroma, this AMAZING italian place, it was in the NY Times of a where to place to eat. SO amazing. Then went back, watched a few movies, went to a drum circle and here I am, typing this blog. Tomorrow I go to LA for the first time, quite excited for warm weather. We are going to MOCA, then to Little Tokyo. Lovely new semester.

I am quite in the mood for traveling. Of couse, when am I NOT in the mood to explore and travel. It is one of the things I enjoy most in life. As I type this, I am now thinking of things that make me the most happy. Should you ponder what things make you most happy, or go along with whatever happens. Personally, great new songs, travelling, and dogs. Those things make me a very happy person. How about you? I am really excited about the possibility of living in NYC for a couple of years for college, and so scared. SO big, so many things, it scares me. Anyone lived there for a prolonged time? The campus is in Brooklyn though, but whatever the "nice" part is.



Stars (Dave Wrangler Remix) - The Xx

How Self-Centered Can I Be? VERY!

1:34 AM • • 4 comments

Finals are halfway over. This is very nice. I have been extremely distressed with my life. Obviously Finals is a key factor into this. French, Math, and English are over with, History and Science are tomorrow, then a new semester. It is hard to believe this semester is already over and the year is already halfway over. I can hardly believe it. Lately though, I have been stressing over my G.P.A. This makes me sound extremely stupid, but it is important to me. It has been so crucial to me because the colleges I am applying to are very competitive and I would like to have a wide variety of choice as well as, as much financial aide as I can get. I am currently quite set on Pratt but if I got, firstly, ACCEPTED, and a nice scholarship and financial aid, to Cornell, I would heavily consider there as well. I do not believe I will get into Cornell though. There is my college talk for the day.

I was walking to my dorm today and I just thought for a bit where I was, where I had gone, and where I will go. People do not often do this it seems. I rarely acknowledge and "credit" myself for achievements, I do not know if this is the case for everyone however. If I get an A in my class I simply think that is what is expected of me, I do not think of it as a job well done. Despite this, I was walking to my dorm and I thought of where I want to be, and what I want to become. I thought about the fact that I had gotten into a highly prodigious art school, how I was graduating a year early, how I was going to go to a prodigious interior design school, and as self centered as it sounds, I thought to myself that I am going to be successful, I already am. I do not think people credit themselves where people should. I am excited for my future, I am excited for my now. I am going to where my dreams are, and people rarely head that path or get there.

I guess I belief a few things. The problems with dreams is people expect them to just happen. Another is that you have to belief you are great to a certain extent to be successful. I do think I am good at what I do, I have always thought that. I have always thought I was as good as someone much older and doing the same thing. I think that I create some amazing things when I try. I feel everyone needs to think they are good at something, under a true pretense. I am good at what I do because I spend hours, days, weekends just drawing, doing ceramics, and photography because I want to be better than the people in my class. I want to be the best and just because someone has done photography for three years and I just started doesn't mean I can be better than them. Everyone needs to believe they are great if they ARE great at something. To me someone presenting something not so great with extreme confidence projects that something as better than it might be. The dream aspect is also very important. If people want to get to their dream they have to do a lot of shit they will never expect to do and choose to do it. I want to be a well known interior designer, but I know that things won't go exactly the way planned and that I will work harder than I will ever think possible. I feel that if things happen that you do not want to happen, you take charge of those things and do something helpful in them. I have had mandatory two hour study hall the past few days and I do not need them but I take things I need to do, like sketch. I just, I am not sure why I am talking about how self-centered I am. Or how I think I am good. I want everyone to do what they want if I see they really want that something. I do not feel generally upset or emotional towards most people of who I do not know, but I want that for people. THAT is enough of that pointless rant.

ANYONE SEEN THIS AMAZING VIRAL CAMPAIGN? It is great! I have no clue who it could be. I appreciate it though. How creepy is the Help Me chant!



( I will now present download links to songs) This is totally legal...THIS ONE ACTUALLY IS THOUGH.


French Navy

1:34 AM • • 3 comments

I like the sound of a camera clicking when the flash is on. I like developing photos and your hands smell of the fix and dyes. Going out in the sunshine after being in a dark area for far to long and rediscovering happiness in weather. I like the time between 6:00 and 9:00 PM, and when the sun is setting, the city lights slowly turn on. Peeking into windows at night and seeing how a human being lives. I like orchids, turquoise, and the smell of freshly opened plastic. Creative music that makes me happy, the smell of a home cooked meal, and preparing for a big trip. I like packing, then unpacking, then packing again, then remembering you forgot more and packing some more.

I like discovering photos that make me take a second peek at what is in each pixel. I like going to fancy meals at the time of 7:30 PM and discussing childhood memories. Hearing about other people’s childhood memories. I like rainy days, when you stay inside and snuggle in a blanket. Waking up to a a drizzle at 9 AM and deciding to fall back asleep because it is one of those days. Movies that make me love love, and movies that make me hate love. I like buying presents for other people and watching them say nothing at all, because that’s all that needs to be said. Staring at a blank inanimate object in class and choosing to let yourself travel to far places. I like picking out furniture I don’t own yet but will.

I like to dance to good music that makes me smile, and hate not dancing to ones that make me feel like D.A.N.C.E –ing. Cutting out photos and pasting them on a wall, colour coordinating clothes. I enjoy the perfect day. I enjoy the day after the least perfect day. I like ideal days. Waking up at 10:30, going out to the city at 11:30, eating at 12:15 and back out to marvel at the wonders of mankind till dinner. Dinner at 7:30 and a concert to follow it. Sleep at 2:0O AM when your bones hurt from being happy. I like pumpkin pie, pizza, gnocchi, and apple juice.

I like, no love my boyfriend. I like that he makes me like everything else. His eyes, his nose, his mouth, his arms, his hands. I like that he makes me feel a worth. I like getting somewhere people thought I couldn’t. Proofing people incredibly wrong and saying LOOK WHERE I AM. I enjoy reaching goals, and getting where I want. I like being hard headed and crashing through everything that isn’t on the path that I want it. I enjoy thinking where I will go, and what follows. I like San Francisco, Paris, Prague, Savannah, London, and I happen to love Idyllwild. I like my school, my classes, my learning, my escaping. Is. I like Lily Allen, Annie, St. Vincent, Regina Spektor. The end.

Today was interesting. It was very relaxing. I started at twelve pm and just got back. Basically brought a box of cheez-its, coffee, thirty rock, and me myself and my pencil. It was nice to just sit there and work and work and work. Got nearly done with the background today! Hopefully will be able to start on the foreground today. Officially am able to graduate next year so a portfolio beckons! I really am leaning on Pratt right now. Not for any particular reason, friend of mine told me the campus was beautiful and the parts of brooklyn it was around was amazing. Just being in New York would be amazing too. For my ADD mind and body, I would never be bored and that would be lovely. I love to explore and see what I can get into. I am just really interested in that. I will college visit cornell and Pratt this summer.

I get to go down to Laguna over Valentines weekend. Which is VERY excited when you live on a 6000 ft. above sea level mountain with 2 feet of snow and zero stop lights. It is nice to get off the hill. VERY nice. It can get claustrophobic at times to me. Other than that, not much is happening. I am preparing for finals, looks like I will keep my 3.8 which makes me VERY happy. 13 new students are coming as well for the new semester, fresh meat is always nice. My life is very school centered I have noticed. However, another day sooner I get to go to France.


Speaking of future. I am excited to get a Shiba Inu, have hardwood floors, and a nice desk and chair. I love lamps. I am excited for walking to get coffee. Excited for many many things.

Woman On A Mission - Gabriella Cilmi



EmoEmoSTFU.

11:25 PM • • 2 comments

I am at this point in my life where I am over caring for things that aren't now. I am tired of looking forward something, because I do a lot of the time, and I put a lot of valuable time and effort into something, and it gets me disappointment. Yes, that sounds like every other 14 year old kid, but I could be not looking forward to something, and working instead of caring. Why get my hopes up about Coachella when my parents won't care about me going to Coachella, and why get my hopes up on anyhting in general. I feel that it really doesn't matter unless it is now, and if it is not now, it is not worth caring about. Do what I need to in the next week, not in the next two months, because those two months wont ever go the way someone wants it too. Who cares about anything they cannot control, those who do are fools because there is a great chance it won't happen. You could ask Machievelli how that would go, and he would say not too well. Control your own future now, with your own luck. I am just over it. I will not look forward to being happy, because those moments are never as great as I thought they would be.